What I'm trying to let sink in, in the midst of this, is that God's view of me is the same on the days where I feel successful and productive and inspired as it is on the days where I feel lazy and inadequate and mediocre. His opinion of me is not based on me, it is based on his love and grace toward me. This is the essence of my relationship with Jesus. That I bring nothing to the equation and he brings everything: grace, forgiveness, acceptance and even delight. I am asked only to receive. And how hard it is to receive. Because it requires admitting need and inability to perfect myself.
"Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God." - 2 Corinthians 3:5
I want to soak in this truth. Freedom begins where my striving to be worthy and admirable ends.
|And to make sure this post is not boring, here's what 30 weeks is looking like. So close yet so far :)|